In Spanish, it's "patada de ahogado."
In TVland, it's "jumping the shark."
You know when you take one last desperate stab at something, hoping it will be the thing that saves you?
Well, I'm stabbing. Not sure what I'm stabbing at, but this little knife is doing some serious damage.
Lately I've felt kind of empty or something. I can't really explain it.
(Before you ask, yes, I'm taking my happy pill. Yes, I'm reading my scriptures. Yes, I'm drinking water. No, I don't have thyroid issues.)
So what am I going to do about this?
I'm not sure. Maybe lay out. Vitamin D is supposed to help, right? But, wait, I take a VitD supplement every night.
Maybe exercise more? Like 6 days a week instead of 5? Run some 2-a-days? Um, no.
I'm generally happy. Just... I don't know... lonely?
Not for lack of Dan. He's around all the time and he's fabulous.
I get plenty of "me" time, too, so that isn't it. I think I might need more friend time. I miss my Utah friends terribly sometimes, which is weird because they are kind of dorky.
I need friends who don't want to talk kids or diapers or daycare or husband problems all the dang time. Sometimes? Fine. Not always. Also, I need friends who I can hang out with, not that I have to make appointments to see. Or fly halfway around the planet to visit. I mean, I need those friends, too... I just need more accessible people to fill in the in-between times, you know?
Geez, am I 12 or 35? I feel dumb admitting this whole thing but it's kind of cathartic as well.
Maybe I'll go for another run today. My iPod is my friend.
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I think it's the Capricorn funk...
You made my night saying you might be here to visit soon. I will keep my fingers crossed even if I am "kind of dorky". I don't mind dorky!
I don't have answers but i miss ballet time for the girls. I looked forward to it every week!
Sometimes I have that feeling, a feeling that nobody really understand. What I usually do is do something that makes me look at the world or maybe even just the specific place that you're at. For example, when was the last time you just laid on your back, looked up at the stars and went deep into your own thoughts? Great ideas come like that. Just a thought.
Good idea, Jesus. I'll try it (or something similar, because here we don't see many stars because of the clouds).
Man-- oh, man. I hear you. I have so felt this way before (and am in a bit of a funk as of late myself).
Too bad we aren't neighbors.
Yeah. I am kind of a dork.
Ah, it's been a long time since I read your blog. Congrats on purchasing a home! That's exciting. I know how you feel. It's so hard to have "hang out" friends during this stage of life. Love ya.
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